i have decided i hate love in the romantic sence. its just a bad fucking idea. i cant wrap my mind around it at all. when i see two people in love it dosent make me think the things it should like, "awww thats sweet" or, "aww i wish i could meet some one" or, "awww thats nice for them" what i think when i see two peole in love walking and holding ( Read more... )

on saturday i was babtized into the in to the church of rome. my grandmother came over to see it. i dont much care for her.

ive been on the subject of my mother a lot. well really its all i think about every waking moment. but this isn't about my mother, its about my sisters. lily and olivia are there names. ages three and five respectively. i was watching a tv show earlier that made me think about them. it had something to do with birth days and it made me think that i ( Read more... )

my mother as basically said no to meeting me. she said she feels to pressured and that she doesn't need this in her life right now ( Read more... )

i dont know why i do this, or why any one does for that matter. are our lives realy that interesting? interesting to the point that others would want to read about them? ehhh who knows. but if your reading this and dont know me i want to say im sorry up front. you see im not that interesting, most of the time i just watch horror flicks smoke ( Read more... )

i heard a pop song that i liked the other day. its by shinedown. it has a line it it that goes "the more the light shines through me i pretend to close my eyes, the more the dark consumes me i pretend im burning bright."

..........i like that.

violent J once said "aint no point to me waken up, everybodys time im taken up i got nobody there aint a shoulder near, i cant stay here and its colder there..." how many of you know what its like to want to stop living or to kill your self in public? just wondering. no i mean when i walk down the street some times i say to my self, "come on priest ( Read more... )