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its all fucking pointless isnt it.

im back and i fucking hate it here.

tonight was my last night of work.

twenty days.

the 20th of this month and the 9th of june is taking a long time to get here ( Read more... )

so im going to quit my job on the 20th. from then untell i leave im just going to kick around. i got what i needed from dishwashing, i got a zippo and just got a new cellphone. after i quit i may go to seattle and stay at the green tortis or somthing. get some hookers and drugs and mabey kill someone who has no one around to notice there gone. ( Read more... )

my plane to pennsylvania leaves on the ninth of june at 11:00pm.

I Fucking Hate It Here.

my mother made contact with karen king, the lady i hired to look for my mother. lori is thinking about mabey meeting me but first wants a handwriten letter and a photo of me.

I Realy Hate It Here.

i move into my appartment at school on the 11th. so ill probably leave between the 5th and the 8th.

i expect meany tearfull goodbyes goddamnit.

I Still Hate It Here.

"abashed the devil stood and felt how awful goodness is." thats from a book by milton called paradise lost. its from when the devil first looks at woman and "sees virtue in her shape". what that means to me is you know when you have to do the right thing and its the last fucking thing in the world you want to do. or when you look at something good ( Read more... )

having my grandmother over here for a while made me think, why do we love our extended family? i my self never see them. it made me think of a line from a song by the insane clown posse called homies. it has a line in it that goes "if it wasent for the blood would you still have love or in fact does the blood make you think you have to love". and ( Read more... )