The other night alex and i hung out....and he told me he was falling in love with me. i got really scared it felt as if my heart got stuck in my throat. i didnt know what to say, so i said nothing. other then that nothing is new, still lonely and depressed but i try to push those feelings away, ive been trying to ignore them.

im soooo messed up. But then again people who really are dont kno it, so its possible that im fine and everyone else is fucked. i dunno. im really homesick for AZ. i thought these feelings would go away after awhile but they havent and because of that i think im crazzzy! actually hope of better things is what im holding on to, thats why im still " ( Read more... )

im so mad...actually im feeling hateful!!! people are so ignorant!!! WHY??? Marcus is an idiot, he's supposed to take care of the family, make sure there is food and money for us...nope according to marcus the only one that matters in life is him, he could care less about the rest of us. i wanna fucking hit him...I HATE HIM!!!! he has to have the ( Read more... )

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