So I forgot that we weren't supposed to flush any  "feminine hygene products" down our new studio toilet! the drainage pipe connects the shower, toilet, and kitchen sink, so that means there was a nasty backflow of sewage water that smelled like barf and ass. now i have to pay the damn plumbing bill of $600.00, all of which I DON"T HAVE! sheesh... ( Read more... )

what does it take for someone to be your pedestal?
i go for thinkers
creators
inovative minds
a little bit of crazy
some insanity
nothing mundane...

when it is quiet, that is when i hear the thoughts in my head
it's lurking
slowly the whispers of my conscious mind comes about
it hits me like a ton of bricks
BOOM!
and so it continues every mundane moment at work
why can't my thoughts escape me
leave
me
alone.

me vale madre! estoy arta de mis pinche sentimientos. cuando siento algo extrano, lo siento con todo mi cuerpo, incluyendo lo maximo por mi corazon. lo malo es que me duele mucho pero al mismo tiempo esto me haga sentir real. nunca me deje en paz el dolor...nunca sera yo el tipo que sea calmada. quien sabe, tal vez siempre sera yo miserable bajo de ( Read more... )

It's embarrassing but it usually takes me forever tomake time to read. Entonces, on my flight over to san diego i had dedicated a good hour and a half to a well recommended book entitled Stone Butch Blues. I have to admit the book took me to new found highs and lows as i followed Jess through her world of differences among the status quo. The point ( Read more... )

i need something to distract me for a bit...

so i've been thinking lately, about many things. about how i long for those carefree days of years passed. when i could work little and play more, all on the basis that my future was taken care of. god i sound like i'm going through a mid life crisis. i think i'm just at that point where i'm figuring out what it is that makes me happy where i am ( Read more... )

curious at what the future holds
my heart aches at the thought of my family not needing my funky presence
hurting when the thought of change dwindles in my mind
where am i supposed to be
where am i going
i am so happy it hurts
yet hurt at times my happiness is neglected
so many emotions to deal with
i'm leaving work early.

Soon I will be...

1. Going home this friday am....early!
2. wedding on saturday in Mexico
3. Going to miss my baby
4. waiting to see Diana
5. much needed visit with Phuong
6. hanging with Anya
7. garage sale in san jose (phuong you should stop by!)
8. Getting paid bitchez on the 8th!!!!!!

Yesterday was a kick ass day if I say so myself! It began like this ( Read more... )