im a horrible people person. i have no friends. when i talk to people, in the back of my head i think nervously "hurry up and end the conversation". i dont do this on perpose, but the quicker i stop talking the sooner they stop seeing me. theres less of a chance of them realizing how stupid i am. less of a chance they have to make judgments ( Read more... )

time to drink. guess what i just found out, im ugly. ha.

my scale is fucked up. i stepped on it and it said 113. 2 seconds later it said 118. ten minutes later it said 93. oh my.

i went to kennys funeral today. i didnt really see alot of people who i thought might be there. it was really sad. they had a few collages with baby pics a stuff. he was such a wonderful person. i wish we would have hung out more. last time he called i didnt call him back. im awful like that.

i cant believe hes fucking gone. my first thought on sunday was that it was some sick joke. i thought that maybe he had just left and that he had his girlfriend tell everyone that he had passed away. for that first few seconds it seemed more believable than the actual truth. i had to verify it. so i called and yes it was true. i didnt cry... ( Read more... )

fuck this. this fucking sucks.

we werent as close as we once were, but ive always cared about you.... fuck.

thats all i can say is fuck.

fucking bullshit... fuck fuck fuck fuck.

someone needs to come over and take me to the store so i can buy cigarettes. yeah... i hate that matt takes the car to work. i mean, i can easily take him to work, since he only works about a mile away, but who the hell wants to wake up at 6:30 and go out in the freezing cold weather. not to mention i have to bundle up the baby and take him with ( Read more... )

baby pictures

http://photos.yahoo.com/mercury1naz

im tired. matts not home yet. work work work. i should be doing my homework for school, since im three weeks behind, but ill put it off some more. phoenix is getting so big, 7 months! not crawling yet, not even interested at all in crawling. he just rolls to get to where he needs to go. its so cute. and he just started doing this thing with ( Read more... )

You Have a Melancholic Temperament


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