i've drawn him a picture ( Read more... )

sex fills my mind reaching full capacity spilling over into the nerves of my fingers. masturbation overwhelms them. i'm going in for the kill. my mind has lost all decency. morphing into slum. there's a shell covering me. i'm breaking out. bursting into flames and descending. maximum pain and love is what im reaching for. extremes are consuming my ( Read more... )

I'm pretty sure i was about to write a meaningful blog but i smoked and bowl and forgot what direction i was taking it.

i'm a heart.
i'm a heart attack.
i'm a heart attacking.
i'm a heart attacking you.
i'm a heart attacking your heart.

my insides are all you want. & all you feel.
& that's a lie. in two ways.

everyday i got through life loving everything about the air i can breathe, the people i get to see and meet, and everything that blooms ands happens. i love life because from what i believe it doesn't come twice. i give the courage and integrity you need to live life to the fullest. i give compliments to make smiles and happiness. i don't give them ( Read more... )

i need to stop throwing up my emotions on his face.

i just want to love him. thats it.

Irrationality at its peak, I begin to feel as if my integrity has been blown. Blown, like a sex deprived male on his monthly swinger attack. My heart beat ceases to exist as my nights become shorter and my thoughts louder. I close my eyes on this dance floor and forget about you.

I've tried to find a clever way to start this bit but it ceases to conjure so i'll begin with this. He had a 1 inch by 2 centimeter hickey on his neck tonight. What a fucking tool. You see, 'he' is this boy Brian and Brian is this boy that I've been 'talking' to for about 2 months now, BUT when you show up after not seeing me for a week and a half ( Read more... )

all i know to do is grab my bong and rip it. it has become the antidote for my reality... i am too lusted to boys. some lonely soul, why don't you come and save me?

i met a boy.

who's makin me squirm my legs in the air uncontrollably. smile uncontrollably. laugh uncontrollably.

who's makin my heart mend. givin me all kinds of feelings. that are uncontrollable.