So even though I am doing so much better. Three things happened today that reminded me of you, maybe more. One, I am ill. A bad cold, maybe flu coming on, and I'm freezing...and you would say..." I am warm. I'm like a furnace." Then, my sister found out she is having her third baby girl and even though you hiss at children I know how you really ( Read more... )

I survived the weekend. One day was really hard and my friends aren't even in town. Considering how things could have gone, I'm pretty happy. You drunk texted me at 1am. So typical. However, it was atypical of me to not respond. Then in the morning I received two more texts apologizing for the drunk text. I did not reply ( Read more... )

So haven't wanted to say this out loud yet. But I have been talking to a guy. He is great. He is much older, 44 but everything just meshes right. We have a date in Friday. And i think it could go well. He kinda is just what i need. If I am ready. It is so soon but he knows everything. We talk for hours. I feel like I need to say I'm sorry because I ( Read more... )

Feeling so happy today. Even the songs that hurt, don't. I'm so much stronger than I give myself credit. I still love you, though. Always. But I have to let you go. For me. Get better will you. You're missing the best love there is ( Read more... )

2016

Run a half marathon

Lose 20 lbs

Go somewhere on a plane

Go to the movies alone

Kayak

Perform live somewhere

Be happy alone

Help some one achieve something

Catch a fish

Become rookie of the year at work

I told you yesterday that you would one day have your friend back. I'm not going to be your friend until you cannot have me, until I am in love with someone else.

That's my plan.

You played the victim for your entire adult life and the would be choosy with your women. You were so quick to say my husband sucks but you are even worse ! Seducing me and then telling me after we had sex that if a hot girl came along and asked you on a date you would have to explore things ( Read more... )

I was rejected by a guy who is always rejected...is that worse than being rejected by a guy who can't get over his fears of rejections ?

I have so much to do and no desire I just want to cry.

He words were magnificent but his actions fell short

I survived Santa on my own. He brought the kids a fair amount of fun stuff and they seem happy. They go to their dads today and I am alone through Monday. So weird ( Read more... )

Well, here I am. Without husband or boyfriend and its Christmas Eve. This time last year I was feeling guilty for accusing my then husband for lying about a million things and yet now I know he was lying about said things. Untrustworthy. I'm glad he is gone but my fear is that I still allowed myself to let in another liar to take his place ( Read more... )