it just hit me today: Next year i'm definitely going to be at an amazing school that I love. Which one? well, i couldn't say right now, but i am so excited for next year. I'm just waiting to hear from Eastman. they are pissing me off, i just want to whole process to be over with. but that's alright. i'm already into two of my other top ( Read more... )

so, i am super happy, cuz i just got an acceptance letter from the Boston Conservatory. It's my first out of state letter, so i'm really excited. I'm definitely not staying in Michigan! woohoo! not that the acceptance from state and u of m didn't mean anything, especially considering how many really smart people u of m rejected this year. it's ( Read more... )

I feel so frustrated right now. i have to agree with tyler that it seems like the play is just gonna be crap. I feel like no one's putting all of themselves into this and we're just standing around putsing about all the time! People are missing entrances, people don't know their music, people don't show up to fucking rehearsal. It seems like ( Read more... )

Wow, so I can feel this...thing coming at me. I am overcome with anticipation, for while this thing hinders my life and gnaws at me daily, I love it nonetheless ( Read more... )

Yeah, so i'm pretty much ecstatic right now. I mean, this pretty much means my life is not gonna totally suck. embarrassment? no longer an issue. I mean, of course freak things could happen and it could all be for naught, nothing's official yet, but FUCK YES! "I would love to have you", what words could be sweeter to the eyes of a freaked out ( Read more... )

You Are 54% Evil
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wow, ok, this seems totally weird cuz it's been maybe 20 minutes at the most, but i pretty much feel all better. I guess that's just the way i work, i burn out fast and am quickly back to my cheerful self. Oh well, it was fun while it lasted, but what did i really expect? wasn't it me who so vehemently would not go further, be more? well, this ( Read more... )

To watch and want to ( Read more... )

Open your eyes
don't let them get full.
Of envious pride
of things that never were
of things you never wanted
of salt water and lies.
With those eyes do not turn what was meaningless
substantial
it was nothing
you felt nothing
Open your eyes
and close your heart.
That was never open.
Leave it shut!
Open your eyes

I'm falling apart, I can feel my seems ripping, my limbs being torn from me. I feel like everyone and everything is tugging me in different directions: claiming and pulling and grappling and conquering every last inch of me until there's nothing left. Everyone wants some time, everyone wants a break. Everything is weighing down on me and I feel ( Read more... )