I've obviously fucked things up for right now, and it seems like I probably fucked things up for the future too. I always knew it could happen, I wasn't planning on marrying her or anything. But it hurts. Wow. I... yeah.

LaFideal (10:03:48 PM): i told you earlier larry. i don't want to be your girlfriend, i don't want to 'just date'...what else can i say to tell you what i feel or what i want?
WizardSyc (10:04:06 PM): so we're just going to be friends, nothing more?
LaFideal (10:04:13 PM): yeah

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Yeah, I cried.

I played poker last night (or earlier today? Yeah, my sleeping schedule is really weird right now). I bought in for $5 and left with $10. That's a %100 increase! Sorry, feeling proud...

I can't believe she wrote that dumbass comment. It doesn't reflect what I'm feeling, and it pisses me off that she wrote it. I don't know what to do. Hopefully Taylor is more understanding than Tammy is.

So, I've been thinking about it. I really like Taylor. Yes, you know this. And she likes me. So rather than worry about anything for the next couple of months, I'm just going relax. Be happy. Make her happy. If it comes to fall and she doesn't move up, or if she does and it doesn't work out, well, that's the way things go sometimes. But, ( Read more... )

I really want a dog. And now that I'm moving in an apartment this summer, for good, it's a possibility. !!! Yeah, I'm excited. Tammy and I went to the Humane Society today and looked at the dogs. I'm pretty sure if we get one, we'll be adopting it from there. I'm thinking some kind of terrier. Tammy saw a picture of a boston terrier and fell ( Read more... )

All is well.

I'm scared. I really, really don't want to do anything wrong.

I don't think I make Taylor happy anymore. Last night I sent her an email telling her how much I miss her, and in response she sent me something telling me how sad she is. She's afraid to tell me things because she's afraid that I'll just make her feel sad about them. What kind of guy makes the girl he's dating concerned about things that make ( Read more... )

Taylor and I had a long talk yesterday. The whole situation came down to the fact that she has a fear of commitment. But, not in the sense that she doesn't want to see me anymore because we're getting too close. No, it's in the sense that she doesn't want have the title 'girlfriend'. It brings a lot of stress for her, because she feels that she ( Read more... )