Suddenly, the past lurkings of another life ( Read more... )

i want a way out. i want to part the walls of this world so i can pass into a different mind state. i want to be filled with modivation. but instead it is seeping out of me more and more everyday. i feel like i have temporarily given up.

do i dare rip out the guts of my optimism?just so it doesnt bring me crashing down from my high hopes again. can i just tell my myself next time that nothing good is going to happen so when i does i wille expect it? why does that little sliver of possibiliy raise my hopes so high?
FUCK

so i work about 6 days a week now. i'm back at goodwill. woo hoo. and i got a new job at hopkins on market street. its pretty cool except having to work with meat and onions. i get free food which is nice cause food gets so expensive ( Read more... )

destitude. solitude. we are all makers of our own sin. burn bright and live high amoung the vast darkness. escape through the sliver of doors that give us our last chance into another demension. As we tell our stories there are truths we choose to forget to mension. The brushing of our forearms gives a certain connection of desires. The most ( Read more... )

( meow )

so the 29th was my birthday. and i am now legal ( Read more... )

You only see what your eyes want to see ( Read more... )

to give my mind a vacation i let it bask in silly little daydreams. Today i want to be a spec of dirt caught in your current between the lily pads washing back and forth and back and forth. or a lizard slithering through the stems of the many plants in your gardens. a crane spreading its wings on your peir, i can feel the wind glide along my hollow ( Read more... )

today is day number 1, and i think by quitting now i will only have to stop for less than a month ( Read more... )