what the fuck was I thinking?!?!?!!

All the fucking irrational circular logic and making more of everything than was even remotely necessary. I want to STRANGLE this person.

Ashton Rayne is dead.

I don't know how I ever managed to function this way.

I was constantly stressed and all I ever really wanted to do was kick my lover in the head.

*shrug*

I was looking for something. Didn't find it. Guess I can't see it anymore.

I'll remember it quietly.

damn, this is an old journal.

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someone is going to pay - and they are going to pay dearlyI did not write or authorize a check for $154 on July 1st - if this is the fucking bastard I think it is, if this check is an electronic transfer from sprint, if I'm paying your fucking phone bill again... you are in big fucking trouble, asshole ( Read more... )

having fun?

*raises eyebrow*

i'm being bitchy and weird as hell. almost cried seeing one of the characters off hollywood blvd. posing with a kid in the store - actually had to run in the back. then had a conversation with one of my coworkers about anal fisting. this morning my short term memory was crap - kept forgetting to get people things that they ordered. moved shit, ( Read more... )

onyx just pissed on my beanbag... again. and ruined another pillow. Probably because I got it from my neighbors who had another cat. tell me, is there *any* way to clean a beanbag, or do I have to throw something else away ( Read more... )

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Tom the eccentric nudist
Date: Jun 23, 2005 1:24 PM

get rid of the clown make-up and become a man! You're 22???? Damn! you llok like an idiot!

Say hello to Tom!

*cough*

Anyway...

what, is it like 'crying day ( Read more... )

it's hopeless, so utterly hopeless. I'll have $100 left after rent, won't have enough to cover bills, and the stuff on the job front just looks bad. none of the dungeons I've contacted have gotten back to me [I called one today to remind them about my email, so maybe...], I'm still stumped on the whole hollywood blvd. character thing [how hard ( Read more... )