I am feeling:

Angry
Sad
Happy
In love
Ignored
Lonely
Loved
Respected
Frustrated
Depressed
Hypocritical
Honest

all at the same time.

If what looks like is going on is actually happening then I totally regret being so tough on myself. If not then there is so much to be sorted out.

I cannot believe what went on last night. Such amazing fun but ( Read more... )

You said I didn't notice
Of course I fucking noticed
How could I miss it
Staring right at me

You said i'd been great
But i didnt understand
all i did was show up
and talk a little bit

dont you ever ask me to stay
its the last thing that i need
because the only thing i cant figure out
is if its harder to be here than leave

open air and celebrity
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A darkened room ( Read more... )

You know.

Metal and trawling through history are keeping me from bawling ...

Drowning tears ( Read more... )

"Please don't hurt it brings me to tears"

I wonder what happened to GirlWithPistol, I hope she is ok.

I like who I am now.
But I often miss the person I used to be.

I have a slightly tearful sense of confusion.

<3 this ( Read more... )

I'm not who I was then.
I'm not who I was before that.
I'm not who I was 18 months ago.
I am someone new, but yet I am still the same.
I feel the same things but I react in different ways.
I feel different but yet the same.
I still can't fully express what it is that goes on inside my brain, maybe I never will, I try to though.
I am stronger, yet weaker, ( Read more... )

But I am mightily fucked off.

It's been so long since I was on here that I don't know if anyone even uses it anymore but I felt like I needed a place to scream loudly.

ARGHGHGHGHGHGHGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH