When you know damn well there's no one behind them.

I quite like using lyrics as post titles, it's something I keep meaning to do on my ad blog. (Can you tell I am really bored yet?)

My dad once told me that he used to play me Stairway to Heaven all the time when I was a baby so that I would grow up appreciating music. I'm not sure if it was the ( Read more... )

This is roughly the letter I want so much to write but just can't.

Before you read the rest of this, I want to make two things clear up front to you:

1. I don't want anything from you, I am really happy that you and Andy are so happy. He seems like a great guy and you go so well together. Even in the unlikely event you felt something similar to ( Read more... )

So essentially what happened is this:

We all finished the ride and went to the park by the lake to have a barbecue and drink til the small hours.

What happened was numerous games of drunken comedy, alphabet games and so on, until somehow we started playing spin the bottle.

I don't know why or how it got to this, but as it was just a stupid bit ( Read more... )

Fly Away

I knew a girl so beautiful
She broke my heart without even trying
so inspired so passionate
she ripped my thoughts to dreams of flying

I'll fly away and join you there
If I can't make you stay
I always find I'm left behind
While the angels fly away

I knew a girl so amazing
She spoke her mind and never gave in
So perfect so passionate
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Ok that was a much harder day than I expected.
I felt a gap and got quite sad; but towards the end of the day I was reminded how ace all my colleagues are (with a couple of exceptions), and I genuinely believe I'm over the worst bit now.

Onwards to happier me. If relationships are meant to be they will happen, if things aren't right then they will ( Read more... )

It would be wrong to say that I don't miss her. The first few weeks were quite hard, I felt her absence really strongly. Its better now, I've learnt to accept she isn't coming back. I think I could talk to her now and be fine. what surprises me is just how hard and unexpected the whole thing was. I can't believe how strong the effect of it was, how ( Read more... )

Gone.

She's left and in one sense half this fuss is kind of over.

I managed not to show it but I was pretty upset really, despite plenty of trying to ignore it it just always seems to hit me when she is about.

As we all left, she gave me a hug and asked me to make sure I emailed her. I mentioned how we would all miss her just as much as she'll ( Read more... )

And so it appears is confusion...

I really try to be a good person, and I think I am pretty much. I think it's funny, the other day Steph asked me what I wanted and I replied "To be adored" and I think that is pretty much spot on.

I guess I just feel right now that I can sense some resentment in my life, and regardless of what 'else' has been ( Read more... )

Spending time with her is so precious. She leaves in two weeks and I can't pretend that I don't feel absolute love for her.

I went from the pub with workmates back to Didsbury where we had a quick drink before she became too busy to go out and do so. I spoke to her about all the things wrong with my life, I didn't even question, I just trusted her ( Read more... )

I don't want her to leave. everytime I spend time with her, the fact that i'll never be with her hurts more and more.

she said she was sad that we would forget her yet we made an impact on her. she couldnt be more wrong.

before any of this I once dreamt about holding her in my arms as she slept. Now I daydream about it.

it was only a game but I ( Read more... )