I am knight. To hold you and to release you, to protect myself so that I can be myself, in front of so much of my past manifested in new ways. People think they are unique because they choose what is different to them, because they act in a manner unexpected of them, instead of in a manner befitting of them. I look for people to connect with, and ( Read more... )

Over time I've been feeling a huge disconnect from this journal. I'm not exactly sure why, but I think it has something to do with all the past feelings still connected to me. I have such a rich history on livejournal; traveling back through colourfuldepths and this (metrichaos) ties together into one long, crafted story of adolescence, self- ( Read more... )

 It's a HotKid kinda night.

Updates:

I live in downtown Toronto now, in my new Yorkville condo at the corner of Bay and Charles! 
I'm going to New Zealand this Christmas, and then to Melbourne. If all goes well I'm going to hold a few shoots down there!
I'm trying to get more involved in the fashion industry, something that can take me further than ( Read more... )

I imagine that there is a space for me amongst all this hype. To have this much passion is a bit of a curse, but it's my vehicle too. I'm all excited when I think about but I really don't know any more than you do. I feel like I need to be struck by lightning to make this work.

It's funny that I haven't said much considering how much is actually going on, I guess it's just not as necessary as it once was for me. But I'm sure you'll all find out, all the big things that I will do. There are stories to come, and stories to be told.

I will fly into the cauldron if it meant giving them all hope.
Perhaps this is truly part of my new purpose.
My blood boils and my heart burns in a prism of passion.
Adversity will fall to my love, and children will celebrate their existence without trying so hard to define themselves.
Live for yourself, love for others, and take pride in your ( Read more... )

Maybe I'll jump off the edge,
just to see if I can fly.

I will hold the light up to the stars on the night that I choose to let it go ( Read more... )

if I fall asleep slowly
to the sound of Joni Mitchell
taking deep breaths and long sighs
wrapped up warm beneath a few blankets
thinking of you

"Once I started secondary school, I began leading a double life: On the one hand, in the house there was all this gaiety, the world I invented with my drawings, sets, costumes, and theatre; on the other hand, in parochial school there were trials and a world that excluded someone dreamy, pensive, and shy like me, where kids mocked me, bullied me, ( Read more... )