Aw, Mette.. I don't feel like I know the story here, but I'm sorry it's so raw and painful for you. You deserve better, and I know something will come along for you. Probably when you least expect it. :)
It is getting better though. Really. Last night was just a minor crash cuz I was talking to Gihan who knows him and who's also going through something with a guy - and then girl talk evolves... :-/
I imagine it's difficult to be so frank and honest about your feelings, and how much you're hurting, you're incredibly articulate and lucid about the whole thing, including your confusion. I'm sorry, what you have written is heartbreakingly sad, ((((((((GIANT HUGS))))))))), it just makes me appreciate all the more how kind and supportive you are to me, I'm so grateful for that, it means so much. It's so difficult to lose a friend, or to lose hope, and you're really brave and strong for admitting the hurt and for dealing with it the way you have, even if it doesn't feel that way to you; I see from your comment above that things are getting better with time, so all I can do is wish you the best for the future; what you have been through is horrible, and agonising, but I'm happy for you that you are able to acknowledge the good things, and are trying to silence the voice in your head that wants to ruin the happy memories. It's nice that you have Gihan to talk to about him, and I hope your relationship with Husam improves in the future.
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hey - I'm sorry I never replied to this, when you wrote it I was still all emotional and I couldn't even read the whole comment in one go cuz of tears :-/ ...today I managed to read the whole thing and not cry though *big hugs*... Just wanted to say that I really appreciate the comment. And I don't really have Gihan to talk to - well I probably could if I was any better at emailing but I'm not - and we are rarely online at the same time. But yeah, she is wonderful, and it's different when I do get to talk to her cuz she knows him and the culture...
But it also helps me to to read everything you are experiencing *giant hugs back*... I hope we get to meet up one day - and swop stories and drink gin and loads of wine, heh :-)
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It is getting better though. Really. Last night was just a minor crash cuz I was talking to Gihan who knows him and who's also going through something with a guy - and then girl talk evolves... :-/
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But it also helps me to to read everything you are experiencing *giant hugs back*... I hope we get to meet up one day - and swop stories and drink gin and loads of wine, heh :-)
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