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I come here when I need to say...
I hate my job. There is nothing redeeming about it anymore. I have a severe, secret loathing for all my co-workers, and I fear it's starting to show. Not because they are terrible people, but because they only offer me a daily reminder of how little I've done with my intellectual potential. I'm sick of serving disgusting food to disgusting people. ( Read more... ) -
love and marriage.
i've spent most of the last few weeks on an emotional rollercoaster. trying to figure out dshs....kinda late in the game...but i was kidding myself thinking we could continue to pay out of pocket for kaiser once i went on maternity leave. i love luke's daughter but i wish washington didn't take half his pay to supplement her no-good, jobless, ( Read more... ) -
feeling happy, mostly.
happy feelings mostly.
new pains in places i didn't know could hurt, but i suppose it all comes with the territory.
weird dreams....SERIOUSLY. also comes with the territory...or so i hear.
as the belly grows, so does my love...but im not gonna lie and say my anxiety doesn't also
grow the closer we get to meeting this young fellow.
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and the beat goes on...
I'm a few days past the halfway point. I'm working less, due to slow season and voluteering for hour cuts.
Now that Lucas is working I feel very much less obligated to snatch up whatever hours I can get, and just relax. It feels good.
We found out that we are having a boy :)
Samson _____ Smith.
Middle names are an ongoing debate.
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Luke lost the stupid job at the liquor store, but things have worked out for the better now. He got a job making more money (with a real possibility of raises and moving quickly up the ranks) doing what he knows... making pizza and feeling cooler than just a normal pizza guy. It's at a super busy and hip place in the Hollywood District right off ( Read more... ) -
shopping spree
back on graveyard on the weekends. it makes me feel zombie-ish ( Read more... ) -
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dear mattress,
i would like to wake up one of these mornings without feeling like i
got kicked in the back by a horse. k and thank you.
and here i go to give you another chance. be nice. -
a little vent about work.
this last week work has been a real drag.
i remember when it used to be kinda fun, but now it's different. different people different times i suppose.
i am constantly reminded why i moved on from that place, and regret moving back a little more every day.
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i'm hungry but nothing sounds good.
feeling light headed.
less tired today. more restless though.
anxious for my first doc appt on the 19th.
