more ups and downs than a trampoline.
let's do coke like we're vacuums.

fuck you.

Existance feeds itself again.
You used to be someone I could go to.
You used to let me in.
Where am I now?
Nowhere.
I have to say, life's been good lately.
I'm on the verge of something I've been waiting for.
It feels amazing to be on edge, on task again.
I'm in study hall, a month left of this place.
I can't wait to walk out of here for good.

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private entries are good.
gets a lot off my chest.
but they're getting old lately.
i should start writing in here again, with more public entries.
i saw a comedian tonight in providence.
i've never laughed at "jokes" so hard in my life.

i honestly think i am a normal good guy.
but some things really take a number on me.
i don't remember the last time i've really felt appreciated.
appreciation is the only thing that i can ask for.
you can only do so much good until it blows up in your face.

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I'm never enough.
& all I've wanted is just that one word for so long.
I won't change myself for anything.
If I'm so fucking flattering,
Then everyone's a bullshit artist.

I haven't been this stressed out in a very long time.
It's something I'm not used to.
I hope that I don't fail out of school.
I hope that my attendance appeal goes through.
I hope I won't have to worry about a lot soon.