after updating here, i'm going to smoke a cig, brush my teeth, then go to bed. then wake up at 5:30am and get ready for work and go to work at 7-4. then see alicia watson<3 and hang out w/ her (hopefully!!!! i see her ( Read more... )

still don't know the reason.
i know the reason where i don't want to be. b/c i don't feel safe. i don't feel sane.
i feel comfortable at home.
i feel comfortable 4hrs.....from here. far away...
i feel fine.

i'm still trying to find the reason why i feel so...mellow ( Read more... )

in the end, there's always someone inspiring another...somehow...some way ( Read more... )

I don't think I've ever felt this depth of depression before. I had that 'super power' of motivating myself...but now it's like I seem outgoing, but it's so hollow to me. I have lost the base of my happiness. I've lost that power to be positive. I hate negativity..it's so annoying and it makes people look weak and i don't like looking/feeling weak ( Read more... )

i wish i can predict the future..
for example
predicting that i'll have the shittiest week ever
i could change things to make everything better.

she is bullying me at work again. and it's to the point where i cant really work at alllll whenever she's around. i feel like everything i say is worthless.
i feel worthless.

Scorpio (23 Oct - 21 Nov ( Read more... )

i guess i never realized how tired i was until i woke up an hour ago... took a five hour nap which was much, much needed..i wanted to sleep all night, but i have stupid frenhc hw to do. which sucks ( Read more... )

i never had any real/true friends in raleigh.

it IS at a house in raleigh ( Read more... )