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Nov 23, 2005 14:04

fuck whats wrong with me. i hate this and i hate life. i dont know what to do. i just broke down in the bathroom crying... i dont think i have ever cried so hard in my life. it wasnt crying. it was more like, violent shaking, with tears running down my cheeks. i cant stop this. i am in way to far ( Read more... )

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just_sullen November 23 2005, 16:15:35 UTC

When do you come home?

And what would happen if you went to the Doctor or whoever there? Is there a way you could get around the fact that you are actually bulimic? Could you say that you have been really sick and can't keep anything down? Blame it on acid reflux?

If there is no way for you to get help medically right now, i will do whatever i can. I've just started the 'recovery' thing, so i've got a bunch of handouts from the nutritionist. I'd be happy to scan them and email them to you. Let me know what i can do, no matter how small or how big a task, i am only too happy and willing to help.

just_sullen November 24 2005, 06:41:19 UTC

thank you so much. i am just worried, and more so. i am in denial i guess, that anything really bad can happen to me. if that makes sense. anything you can send me, i would love it. i cant really find too much out about it

what is recovery like?? if you dont mind sharing. like, what are they doing to help you recover

mia2ana November 24 2005, 06:52:04 UTC

umm,... that was me, oops

just_sullen November 27 2005, 05:39:20 UTC

I've scanned in some of the materials i have from the program. Do you want me to email them to you? I would just put it on my lj but i can't figure out how to do that. Damn i am so intelligent.
A lot of it pertains to a vegetarian diet, but obviously it's easy enough to figure out where meat, eggs, and milk products would fit in.

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hayleygusola November 23 2005, 19:13:51 UTC

Try to admit it and go to the doctor. There are so many girls out there with eating disorders that the doctor is not going to judge you. What is the worst that can happen?

_starving_ November 24 2005, 06:28:33 UTC

Trust me, the reason there are doctors and pyschiatrists in the world is because they want to HELP you. we all seem to have a phobia about telling them because we feel they will judge us and like, try to harm us and make us fat. they really just want to help..

"please tell me, what is going to happen to me..." - from your descriptions, it sounds like you are very ill and your body is shutting down. please, try and get some help :(

mia2ana November 24 2005, 06:37:33 UTC

but what happens. i mean, there is all this information about anorexia and stuff, and about what happens to your body, and the signs and symptoms about what is going wrong, and if your getting to sick... and all this stuff. but i mean. what about bulimia. imean, how do i know if there is something wrong with me. i understand that it hurts your teeth and esophogus and stuff, but is there anything that is going to happen? i mean, real problems...

sorry for the millions of questions. i just honestly dont think there is enough info out there, and i am a little scared

_starving_ November 24 2005, 20:03:35 UTC

dont apologize for asking questions, its ok :)

and yes! there are serious things that can happen. for one - EVERY TIME YOU PURGE YOU RISK HEART ATTACK. this is huge, and kills tons of bulimic people.

you can get an ulcer (which is when the acid of your stomach eats a hole in your actual stomach lining)

your esophogous can collapse.

your teeth can fall out, become overly sensitive to the point of not being able to eat or drink, or delevope nasty cavities.

you can pass out when purging, which is bad. but when you pass out, you can fall and injure yourself, hit your head.

and another big one is, you can die of hedydration. when you purge, you purge up tons of water and necesary bodily fluids. dehydration is very likely and very dangerous.

please - get some help and at the very least make sure you are taking vitamins and drinking tons of water every day.

I AM JUST LIKE YOU simply_angel08 November 29 2005, 04:35:51 UTC

I AM JUST LIKE YOU... I AM SO SCARED AT WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME EVERYTIME I PURGE... A LOT OF THE THINGS YOU ARE EXPERINECING I AM GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING AND I NEED HELP. MAYBE WE CAN HELP EACH OTHER? I AM AFRAID TO GO INTO A TREATMENT CENTER BECAUSE THEN EVERY ONE WOULD KNOW AND I AM JUST SO ASHAMED... WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE MY FRIEND? MAYBE WE COULD OFFER SOMETHING TO EACH OTHER. AFTER ALL WE BOTH WANT HELP... EMAIL ME OR JUST SEND ME A MESSAGE.. sistah328@yahoo.com I LOOK FORWARD TO HEARING FROM YOU.. HANG IN THERE