no, im not going to kill myself, i just need to... cry.

[mia2ana]

god i wish that i could stop crying. i mean, honestly. why am i so miserable. maybe it was because i am falling apart. physically and mentally. i mean. for lunch i wasnt going to eat, and then someone brought cookies. so i ate one cookie, than i ate a peice of chocolate, and then some m&m's. and then... well a few more peice of shit foods later i

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[storybookmorgue]

I know exactly how you feel. It's terrible when I get this way. I hate myself so much. But I have faith in you. I think things will work out for you in the end.

[starlacomet]

I found your journal through an mka community and I just wanted to tell you that your writing is beautiful. It's very raw and emotional, which is something that's hard to find on lj.

I've added you as a friend. Hope you don't mind :)

-Sarah

[mia2ana]

really? i dont think its that good. its just an emotional mess. but thank you.

sure thats fine. ill add you back.

[control___me]

"every time i puke im like, ok this is it. this is my last time. no more. i can do this."

My exact words.
I woke up at 4 in the morning while everyone is asleep so I could binge and purge. I'll have to go to work with black bags under my eyes and tired as hell.

This is Omgitstonya. My new livejournal. Add me?

[mia2ana]

of course added