well i like working at linens 'n things or at least i think i do, for now. its really laid back and the people are really cool, but it is hard work. we closed the store at 10 and i didn't get out of there until 12. i close 3 more times next week and work 37.5hrs YAY MONEY MONEY! that's all i wanna focus on right now! it seems when i am at work i ( Read more... )

i'm to upset over this, is it possible to only see how much something means to you until you don't have it anymore? i think so...yet i already knew that. u take things forgranted and then when its not there anymore u're left feeling well...."distraught" for lack of a better word. its ok thought i'll distract myself...go for a run, paint, draw, ( Read more... )

shane n i broke up he said that i need to work on myself bc i have to deal witha lot of issues and he can't be there for me in a bf way right now bc he feels he is walking on eggshells with me he wants to remain friends but can't/and won't be my bf right now even tho he wants to be he says we have fought about a lot of things that we have argued ( Read more... )

and i'm starting to let myself fall...

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one am and i can't sleep thinking about my dad....not crying almost wanting to but i cant so i am just thinking....will i ever stop? it still bothers me.... went through his papers today, nothing of note i guess. i want to move into his old house. i need to move away from my mother i think we would have a much better relationship that way. AC in ( Read more... )

i got fired from starbucks for coming in with a hang over! i'm amused!

i don't know what i am doin. i totally bombed on my grades this semester and totally fucked up my GPA i'm sure. how do u even find out what your gpa is? i'm so upset how am i ever going to fix all this. TOPS is finished I'm never going to graduate...

sometimes i get to thinking about my life and i wonder....what's missing? or maybe i'm just missing my dad right now or the thought of him at least....

Ok so it is 2 am and I can't sleep... what to do? Maybe I am just not trying hard enough. Maybe I would have been able to sleep if I let someone spend the night with me, but who knows. I have to go to the cemetery tomorrow and pay the internment fee and find out exactly when we would be able to do the burial ceremony. I am just ready for all of ( Read more... )

everything else that i have ever complained about now seems just so trivial compared to everything else now...