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If I haven't said it before, or made it clear enough, lemme put it out there in unmistakable term: I hate my mom. I hate my brother. My dad was smart enough to try and patch our relationship before he died, so I don't feel as strong of a hatred towards him...I most strongly feel disappointment towards him. I hope horrible things happen to my mom ( Read more... ) -
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I feel pretty good today. I still don't feel... eh, right, I guess. But I feel good!
Ah, I did just remember I have an appointment with Telia tomorrow. I feel a little less good now. I do really need to see her. I just really doubt I'll be able to open up the way I have been here and at home. It's... scary. -
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I got a new pair of pants to wear to my interview, as well as a new belt. I'm totally ready! Makes me sad I have to wear heels tomorrow though. I love my VFFs. Shoes suck!!
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I'm going to a group interview tomorrow. I'm trying to get a job at Nordstrom.
I should be nervous, and usually I would be, but now that I understand myself better, I know I'll just become whatever alter I need to be to impress the people I talk to. I'll barely remember the experience, unless I slip into that alter again. I don't usually have ( Read more... ) -
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Going dancing. Oh boy. -
What's wrong with my head?
I have felt so strange today.
Some moments, I feel as though I am about to figure something really important out.
Another moment, I'll find myself curled up on the couch, crying.
Yet another moment, I find myself walking to another room of the house feeling elated. Till I realize I can't remember where I was walking to, or what I was intending on ( Read more... ) -
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I had an appointment with my psychologist (Telia) last Friday and my psychiatrist (Janet). My prozac dose was upped another 20mg, so I'm up to 60mg. I actually thought 40mg was the highest dose. Now I'm educated =P So, we'll see how that goes ( Read more... ) -
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All things considered, I'm a reasonably fortunate person. The people around me allow me to unload my burdens to them without trying to fix me (an impossibility anyway!) and without judging me. I probably talk to my brother-in-law Charles the most. I know it's hard for him to hear about my life. I see the horror on his face sometimes, even though he ( Read more... )