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My Mother
My Mother died Dec. 27th. Now that I am journaling about this I seem to be lost of words to descrbe how I feel. They just don't seem adequate enough to describe my range of emotions and feelings... -
I Married My Mother.
Today, I realize that I married my mother when I married my ex-husband. I truly believe they are both narcissist ( Read more... ) -
A broken Father's love.
Yesterday, I saw for the very first time my ex-husband put someone ahead of his daughter in the most dramatic way. I will never understand why when men get new girlfriends that the only person feelings that matters is the new girlfriend. Especially, from a relationship that has only been going on for three months and not the whole time during that ( Read more... ) -
Passion
In my life I have adequate, passionate and not so adequate lovers. I am currently in a relationship where my lover happens to be passionate and very much adequate. When you combine the two of those things... I'll just say, you don't realize what you are missing until you do. I have always been a passionate person. I never realized until now how ( Read more... ) -
Beauty
Today, I was editing some photos of people that I took. As I was looking at their eyes and etc... I got to thinking about what made them beautiful. I don't think I see beauty like most people. Don't get me wrong. I think Angelina Jolie, Brad Pitt, Julia Roberts and George Clooney are beautiful. I could look at them all day and smile. The ( Read more... ) -
Romantic gifts.
I gave Daniel a drawing journal last year for Christmas. It said, something sweet on the front. It was a Romantic gift for me to leave him letters, drawing, quotes or all of the above. He placed it in our library. I occasional leave him messages and I don't tell him. It is there for him to discover. It was my way of giving him a Romantic gift ( Read more... ) -
Invisible...
The first time I was invisible to my ex-husband, because of another woman... I was just married for about a year. I had been very suspicious of his behavior. I never was that jealous type that expected the man that I was with not to have female friends. I especially couldn't judge when most of my friends were men ( Read more... ) -
3 years ago.
The last time I was here posting, I had left my husband and was just starting new. It took a lot of soul searching and acceptance of my faults as well as his to find myself in this good space that I am in now. I feel I can talk about it now and understand things enough to share them ( Read more... ) -
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My daughter turns 19... March 22. Wow.. where did all the time go. She is a young lady now. It will be the very first birthday I will not be with her. Unfortunately, it's probably not that last one. I can't help but tear up when I think about it. I love that she is growing up and coming into her own, but there are so many things in me that ( Read more... )
