ok i have 1 week time to lose 3 kg. really cannot eat nymore. but luckily i dint pit ny weight for eatin nonstop for 5 days. but ill work very hard to lose the 3 kgs. then after ill lose more.

yesterday the fukin scale in the gym is broken, i showed i put on 5 kg. stupid scale. luckily i went back n weigh myself again. its the same weight. make me ( Read more... )

gd mornig everybody. ok ok new start today. cant afford to fuk up nymore. hope everbody is goin to do well today.

food is fukin EVIL. stay far away from them. don put them in our body.

im not goin to screw up my day bcoz of the fukin fd. i nd my not so flat stomach back. im goin out this weeekend so i cant go out wit a ballon in my tummy. i have 4 ( Read more... )

ok its 8.30 in the mirning. im not goin to eat nythin today. i have already fuked up for the las 3 days. (my worst fuked up). its really depressin upsettin etc. my stomach now looks like it has a balloon inside. im goin to get my not so flat stomach back. plsplspls i really don wanna have the disgustin feelin again. i wanna have the happy feelin ( Read more... )

im very very fuked up these 2 days. tats y i don even have the mood to post. i think im a failure n i don deserve to post. but i cant do it myself. i nd u all i think. hope i wont eat for the rest of the day.

hope u gals r doin so much better than me. i love u gals n guys. XXX

today i ate like crazy. i dunno y i jus cant stop myslef. im really regrettin now. but i still have  alittle hope. since i've eaten enuf, im goin to fast for 2 weeks from tmr. then ill be headin back home for  3 weeks. hope i don gain weight when i go back, coz i really miss the fd back home. but i think im not gonna eat. i don wanna be  a fat gal ( Read more... )

its 9 am, i dunno y cant slp. i slept at bout 4 am yesterday. in addition, i danced for 2 n a half hours non stop. i shuld be freakin tired. weird. maybe im over exhausted. hehe. nyway im happy coz im sure i had burnt pretty much cal for the 2 n a half hour shakin my arse n boobs off. lol

goin to church soon, im afraid ill fel aslp there. haha... ( Read more... )

so far im doin well. after the disaster from yesterday's non stop  eatin, i really hate fd now.always when i see fd ill tel myself fd is EVIL. havent eaten nythin so far, jus came back from 5 hours shoppin. feelin quite happy. hope this will last forever til i get to my goal weight.

hope all of u r doin fine also. i mis u all so much.the 1st thing i ( Read more... )

im not goin to write what i have put inside my body coz its fukin so much fd. im really fukin angry wit myself. Y CANT I CONTROL MYSELF???????????

jus came back from the gym. burnt 400 cal. i hope tat wil burn off i've put in my fat king kong body.

tmr my plan is:
morning/afternoon
go to portebello market (more than 1 mile long) - walk for at least 3 ( Read more... )

from now on whenever iw anna put things in my mouth, i'll think of thinspo. i wanna be like them. ill always remember the prize that im goin to get. ill be determined tat im goin to be a thinspo 1 day. as soon as possible i hope.

hope u gurls r doin well now. we will together achieve our goal. i love u all so much

im jus postin for myself. to see wat a failure i am. i knew i suldnt go downstairs. i knew i wuld eat if i go downstairs n watch grey antonomy, n i really did. i ate ate ate. went to the toilet n throw it all out. n went back in front of the tv again. n eat non stop again. n fukin purge again. IM REALLY A FUKIN FAILURE WHO CANT FUKIN CONTROL MYSELF ( Read more... )