not eating should be coming to an end soon. my pants and skirts are falling off my hips...and so i felt sexxxy....and so i blasted NWA and danced around. had a half veggie sandwhich and a small bowl of vanilla granola crunch cereal. and i've been up for 10 hours. this is like a quarter of what i usually eat. laid in bed for 7 of those 10 hours. ( Read more... )

i am wildly heartbroken. josh is seeing someone who adores him (of course) and i saw them last night. Logic VS. Heart; Logic: i know i can't be with him, for so many reasons. not just for all the anger i harbor for him not giving an inch and losing what we had because of it, but also he's a slacker. i can't handle it. course its easier for him to ( Read more... )

i drink too much. i spent nearly 100 on beer this week...bars are so expensive. but i've also had shit loads of fun. my premenstral body is mad at me. it's all "stop with the beer and bread. what the fuck with all the bread?!" i'm cranky. i'm a moody bitch. oh, is this the ever-joyful update i promised? oh man, gotta make this good. i got the ( Read more... )

we're so deserving. what fucks us up is that we know or think we're so deserving. surprises are good. so don't expect. but if you don't expect goodness, how will you attract it? dream big. visualization is a big deal. i guess i'm vague with my visualization meditations because i like to be surprised. maybe i can't name what i want but i know when i ( Read more... )

words. what are words? just write. "just write" she said. the voice in my head. is it me? is it you? just relax. just be brave. don't be scared-you know it's all good. clouds outside, clouds inside, in my head. "think clearly," it goes. show'm what you got. don't feel alone. call them back. do you understand everything? are you unfocused? "forget ( Read more... )

got the small town blues. maybe i need a city. i've been distracted away from my plans to move to western mass. i don't think i'll be moving for atleast another year. i have, however, been kicking ass with my plans to start working everyday. some weeks are slower than others and sometimes that's nice. i had sun mon and tue off this week and went ( Read more... )

sorry for being a deadbeat journaler. i just can't really handle computers too much anymore. but hi and how are you?

http://www.nrdc.org/globalWarming/qthinice.asp

http://www.nrdc.org/bushrecord/

http://www.bushgreenwatch.org/

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