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[midnight666]

staying with mum in somerset for a bit. i have been written off sick for a month by my psychiatrist. he upped my risperidone to 3 mg a night. it doesn't make me sleep anymore but it should stabilize my mood. i have to pay for my prescriptions here which sucks a bit. i am so poor it is ridiculous, especially after a month on SSP. that's if my boss

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[midnight666]

have you seen it yet? i watched a making of program yesterday and it looks so cool! might be going to see it today if my dad takes me or next week with mum. i am going to try and focus on myself this month. next week i'm going to start wearing my glitter eye shadow again. try to start treating/pampering myself. i was wondering where you had got to my sweet :)

[anonymous]

youve been thinking of yourself throughout this entire experience. i love it when self-absorbed people tell other self-absorbed people to focus on themselves, as if they havent been the entire time. why dont you stop being a child, stop thinking that everything i say is "mean"..think about the things i have said. i am the only one who seems to actually care enough to tell you things you need to hear. friends arent there to feign support, while reinforcing all of the negative aspects of your personality. i know what it is like to be a self-absorbed, incredibly depressed person who wants to die. you should read and think about all of the advice i have given you. sorry i cant give you simple, cliché single packets of enlightenment like "focus on yourself"...the road to recovery isnt that simple. and the reason you stumble is because that is what you seem to be looking for. a quick, easy, fix.

[anonymous]

focusing on oneself alone causes more problems to arise, such as social isolation.

once again, terrible yet mind-numbingly cliché advice from some ignorant person on livejournal.

ask yourself what perfection is to you. you probably have a distorted idea of it.

[midnight666]

i knew what you meant my dear :)

[midnight666]

if you cant say anything nice dont say anything. i have some good friends on here whom i care dearly about and value their advice

[anonymous]

also it would do you good to research every disorder you have been diagnosed with. read medical journals online. go to a library. taking a doctor's word as law and not researching what they say is wrong is generally a terrible idea. and dont go to some stupid self-help community where all of the people are commisserating instead of improving their lives. they are generally young, ignorant, and misinformed.

[anonymous]

however, i commend you for trying. and holding on. just keep going.

[midnight666]

thanks. i am determined to get better!

[anonymous]

i am really happy to hear that ;)