So..according to livejournal, I haven't posted anything in 42 weeks. I don't even know if anyone still uses livejournal or will even see this. But I'm bored so just figured I'd update, since I haven't in a long ass time. My life has been filled with nothing but ups and downs since my dad and grandpa died last summer. I felt like something ( Read more... )

Haven't updated in a very long time. Just procrastinating as usual before I go to work, like I really feeling delivering newspapers right now. Oh, yeah, for those who don't know, I have a new job as a paperboy. It sucks, really bad, and I feel like a huge loser. Things have been very up and down for me lately. In some ways, my life seems to be ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in so long. It's 10:15 pm and I have work in 3 hours, ugh. I'm so miserable I can't take it. I can't stand life anymore. I hate it more than I ever have. I miss my dad. I miss a lot of things. I'm so unhappy, I'm just truly unhappy with everything in my life and how my life is going. It's so empty. My life feels so meaningless. I ( Read more... )

I was just going to delete this whole journal, but I figured I might as well just keep it so maybe someday I can look back at all these entries. I'm just not going to post in it anymore. At least not until things change. I'm just lost right now. I don't know who I am, what I'm doing, or where my life is going. And, it's apparent now that I really ( Read more... )

My grandpa died yesterday around 3. He had been in hospital for the past 6 weeks... first he had pneumonia, then the pneumonia brought on emphysema, which led to some type of cancerous mass developing in his lungs that caused them to stick together whenever he tried to breathe. Well he was on a respirator for a while.. but the respirator was doing ( Read more... )

My dad overdosed on heroin today ( Read more... )

Wow, I haven't updated in almost 4 months. I don't have much time to update anymore and I never really have that much to say. Well, work is going ok for the most part. Same ole same ole. Frank and I got an apartment. Well, it's more Frank's apartment than mine but I'm there pretty much all the time. I still come home though and at least spend some ( Read more... )

I'm in Florida right now in the computer room. Unfortunately we're driving back to RI tonight. After being in Florida I really don't want to go back home to all the stress. It's so nice out here, it's been in the 80's and sunny the entire week, and the beaches are so nice. Everything seems to be nicer out here, the stores and the prices of things ( Read more... )

I'm leaving for Florida tonight. Be back next week maybe

I haven't updated in a while, mostly because no one really uses livejournal anymore so I figure no one's gonna read it. Not much is new lately, same old. My dad came to Shaw's last week while I was working and asked to borrow my car, and because I was embarrassed about how he looked and how everyone was staring at him I just gave him the keys just ( Read more... )