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I have a laptop again! and new job and a floral denim jacket and the weather's cooling down... and things are looking up.

and now I'm not in high school anymore. so weird.

I made lots of money tonight, but I don't get to spend any of it ( Read more... )

I don't have to work much this week, so all my free time will be spent moving my entire life to 148 College St.
WHAT?
I know. It's so weird.

But it should be great. I just spent the last two days there. and it was very nice.

I went to the gym! and worked with a personal trainer! and ate some subway. and I'm feelin' right.

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all I hear about, all I think about is MONEY, MONEY, MONEY.

that's one of my lines from american clock. but it is so fucking applicable.

I GOT THE KEYS TO MY APARTMENT TODAY.

but I owe my mom over $1300 and I have to start paying rent in June and I've had to ask for so many days off lately. and I'm just getting nervous.

Sometimes I feel like nobody is ever listening to me.

KSJDHFKSDJHFSKDJGKDFJNGKDJNFGKSDJFJSLDKJFLSKKEEEEEEEERJOSIDJFSLKDGKLSMDFLSKDMFLSKMF.

I'm ready to feel pretty again.

I've been in such a rut the last couple weeks. I hate myself when I'm not happy. Negative Nancy's are the worst.

God, I just hate who I am so much right now.