seven months have passed

.

and still i'm not
over you

yes
you have a replacement
but that's all
they will ever be

now you can only bear
to glance at me
- fleetingly -
with hate in your eyes

we never talk
you never smile
i never stop hurting

yet still it seems
so transient

(you are still
the one
and you are all
i ever wanted)

this journal is over
old
defunct
gone

the love of my life
left me
and i just don't
care
any
more
.

so long

believe in no god.
believe in Yourself.

how i strangely loved ( Read more... )

maybe (i am slipping
away and all that
i know

is) maybe if you keep
pushing me down i
will one day disappear

?

mean(while
the ethereal quality
of you still
surprises) me

.

i am too
depend
dent

sorry to all
that i have been
so damn non
existent

rest assured i
am still around
and that i am ok

(reading
devouring)

i am in love
and that's all
that seems to matter,

lately.

"i never felt like this with anyone before
you show me colours and i'm crying
you hold my eyes in yours
and open up the world
i can't believe all this

i want to keep this feeling
deep inside of me
i want you always in my heart
you are everything" (The Cure)i feels like i would cease ( Read more... )

clinging

cling
 ing

the way it sounds
is so lilting
so light

deceptively whimsical

oh
how i love to
en
  twin
 e
my fingers
in yours

so deliciously dark
and mine
so very, very pale

melding skins
pressing
pushing

clinging

the heaviness and
purposefulness
of our touch

"and i'd sell my soul for total control
yeah i'd sell my soul for total control
ooh i'd sell my soul for total control
over you" (The Motels)

the closer i try to hold you ( Read more... )

sometimes
the fragility and
impermanence

in the world i perceive
makes me want to
hide myself away

i fear i will break it
or disrupt the equilibrium
just by being me

just by me
being