So, things are finally looking up. People kept telling me to be patient but that is not one of my strong suits. I just needed to find the right store I guess. I subbed for 2 lessons on Monday, it was a lot of fun. I reinvigorated me so I started applying places again. I know giving up and hiding my head was not the answer but rejection is something ( Read more... )

It has been a rather rough couple of weeks. It's not about money. It's about purpose in life. I am very up and down and sporadic with my periods of extreme productivity to periods of wallowing and crying. The good news? D had a job interview a couple days ago for a super shwanky restaurant to work as a bartender. It would be part time, filling in ( Read more... )

So far I don't like it. I miss my students. I miss my friends, who are also mostly my students. I miss knowing where I can play shows and having shows lined up. I miss having a job. I miss feeling like I have a purpose ( Read more... )

This has been an incredibly active year in the life of myself and my housemates. I kicked off this year by meeting the love of my life. My roommates kicked it off by starting to hook up and becoming pregnant. In this short span of time they had a lovely baby boy and my love and I tied the knot ( Read more... )

So, I've been a bit distracted lately. And I let myself have about a week of total nesting and slack. I have been overwhelmed by they guy i have started seeing. I never thought anyone could return the kind of giving personality i have. I like to make people happy and do things to show them how special i think they are, and so does he! So, needless ( Read more... )

I had an interesting conversation with one of my composers the other night. He's the one who used to live in Manhattan who i was sleeping with occasionally. He just moved back to the San Francisco area and is now on a 3 month long hiking/camping trip. So, he wanted to check in on the piece before he left civilization. Gave me a chance to ask ( Read more... )

He asked me to help him arrange a song for his sister's wedding. I had the funny thought for half a day that this might be an invitation to the wedding, to perform it there... however it turns out it's a recording project. Phew? I'm not gonna lie, that idea had me a tiny bit excited but it also led my head and heart to believe we are closer than we ( Read more... )

Lately my mood is often dependent on whether or not I'm sleeping alone. Things have escalated a lot with the boy and I feel like I'm getting too attached, and too dependent. He affects my mood greatly. We have slept next to each other most nights over the last couple weeks. We only took 2 nights off this week and one of them was last night. If we ( Read more... )

So this kickstarter business is taking forever. It's supposed to take up to 21 days to process and of course we're still in that 21 day period but i get impatient and always expect things to actually happen quicker. My account balance is almost 5 grand, but my disbursable amount is -279! So I can't access it still and I worry that it won't right ( Read more... )

The title of my album, but also what my room currently looks like. I was also a crappy roommate this last week and didn't do my dishes=/ I normally do them within 48 hours or so but this got bad. I had stuff from my student recital 2 weeks ago! So, I did most of the dishes last night and this morning. And I picked at my room a teensy bit. I'll ( Read more... )