wow...this is the most often ive written in this damn thing. u can tewll someone has no life..lol. im starting to set some new goals. so here they are ( Read more... )

these writings are based on actual events that happened a few years ago. since then, thigns have improved greatly. doctors diagnosed what was wrong with dad and i. everytihngs better except for my self esteem. i doubt i will ever have a decent level of self esteem again ( Read more... )

armed with a pair of fresh guitar strings, i have played guitar for like the past couple hours. i got home from work around 11:35..cuz im good like that and i got to go home early. since then..ive showered, changed my guitar stings and played. right now im checking out theis black metal band called Old Mans Child. they are pretty damn good. amanda ( Read more... )

it wasnt long after the ball dropped and it became 2005. i was crashing on the couch for the night. drunk as ever. i decided that night that i had things going good for me. i had a great gf, i had an awesome band. eveything i want out of life. i thought this year things were gonna be different for me. i felt like i finally belonged somewhere. i ( Read more... )

i feel everything falling apart..and all i can do is watch and wait for me to hit rock bottom. everything good in my life is slowly disapearing. my anxiety keeps acting up...depression getting deeper and deeper. i just wish someday i could go for more than a few months without my entire world shattering and my heart breaking in pieces. with all the ( Read more... )

As i Lay in my bed ( Read more... )

your right, idont know you...and soo far i dont like who uve become. something happened. u dumped me, FORCED yourself to lose weight, and i guess lost your beleifs and views somewhere in there. the other day, on the phone u said ur just "breaking out of ur shell" but in reality i see someone who caved into preasures of trying to fit in. you starved ( Read more... )

The strangest thing happened to me today. I had some good luck. lol..it might not be strange to you...but trust me..its odd for me to have good luck. but yea...when i got to work..i walk in and there was this hott girl sittin at a table...of course its me..so i checked her out. lol. then when i was in the break room..i looked out the window for ( Read more... )

" Stupidity-The top of the list for Satanic Sins. The Cardinal Sin of Satanism. It’s too bad that stupidity isn’t painful. Ignorance is one thing, but our society thrives increasingly on stupidity. It depends on people going along with whatever they are told. The media promotes a cultivated stupidity as a posture that is not only acceptable but ( Read more... )

why do you play with my heart. i give you all the love in the world..its right there in front of your face...all you have to do is take it. but yet..somethings wrong. i am not quite what you are looking for. maybe im not your idea of a hott guy. you flirt shamelessly with me and you say im just a friend. you act one day like u like me and the next ( Read more... )