no, i am done with this silence, the time has come. the bars have rusted from the rain, the metal has grown like a plant in my cell. the birds taunt my existence. tonight i will breakout and i dont think i have the voice to express my joy, it is visceral and its origins dwell in the region of my heart, the same place you had your first crush and ( Read more... )

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notes to self ( Read more... )

had a really powerful dream the other night about someone. not someone you would immediately think of. she visited and i was a tour guide of sorts. it felt more like a romantic type dream with the excitement and suspense. im going crazy. i want to do something big (thoughts: make the gym happen, get a real mma fight and train for it/document ( Read more... )

i toss and turn restless, the epicenter of my thoughts gather information in and ping pong it back outside to see what sticks. sonar. i don't know anything. i am lying down in the rain facing the sky. the rain hits my face and i try not to flinch, i try to melt into the scenery. air swirls from the heat released of hot rocks remind me of

meditated before i went to bed and this happened ( Read more... )

Friday: went to fillmore st. glen and had a good time with rachael, then had a bonfire at her house and watched her sister drink 5 glasses of charaz and her husband operate an excavator and pull rocks out of the ground ( Read more... )

i would like to plan a scuba diving adventure after discussing scuba diving with a member of the gym i work at. taking tribulus, feel good. it increases libido and makes you feel like you were in high school again. i noticed the medicine i am taking / work have depressed my ambition to do pretty much anything when i get home. call of duty 3 is ( Read more... )

modern warfare 3
corporate training going well
biggest loser
island extreme
documentaries

teaching crossfit classes, rachael lost her job, big picture because of her leg injury, but pursuing some justice with this (vague). she got offered a lot of positions already that has to do with music and youth so thats good. biggest loser, training lots of clients, really friggin stressed out and overworked. even down time goes to clients and ( Read more... )