i'm still really upset at alex for all the shit he put me through. i don't understand why i always come back to him. i think he still loves me but he has another fucking girlfriend. no, i shouldn't go to vegas with him and yes, i should just hang out with other guys and possible have a boyfriend in the future. i don't know why he's fucking with my ( Read more... )

Colony Collapse Disorder
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Colony_Collapse_Disorder
weird. bees are disappearing. wtf. we're all going to die.

"If the bee disappeared off the surface of the globe
then man would only have four years of life left.
No more bees, no more ( Read more... )

i miss him terribly 

i love alex and i think [well pretty sure] i fucked shit up again. i would write what happened the other day but honestly, i don't want to remember ( Read more... )

1. i wonder when your getting home ( Read more... )

It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles.
Then the victory is yours.
It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell.

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99% of my time, i'm in a shitty mood.
44 days until i head off with friend to humboldt state.
a new location is much needed.

fuck this city life. really.
fuck him too.

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that i post something on here almost exactly two years later.
so many things have happened since then, it's quite amazing.
well;
1. not with john anymore, almost a year and a half since we split.
2. graduated hawthorne high.
3. attending humboldt state university in the fall.
4. have given up on love.

on a different note, i'm very excited ( Read more... )