i, i know... that i should write. it sometimes makes me feel better. As I sit to write this though I cannot truely express how I feel right now. its hard to form words into sentences right now to even convey the hurt i feel. Its like taking something you thought was "for sure" and then losing it ( Read more... )

so its come to this
a pitiful existence
built up
then shot down

to live forever
or die alone
a fitting ending
for the hermit i am

will i ever know
anything as sweet
as the love
once had but lost

Good night sweetheart
Well its time to go
Good night sweetheart
Well its time to go
I hate to leave you
but I really must say...
Good night sweetheart
Good Night

Even though the last couple of days has been rainy the sky has seemed to be a bit brighter. What sun shone through felt a bit warmer. My heart felt lighter. Though work may have sucked and is going downhill... I have rediscovered love ( Read more... )

What would be nice right now?
To just be held, feel important again, and hear I love you all the time.
That I want more then anything.
*sigh*
How sappy and pathetic am I?

Another note, hours are dropping again at work which sux. Still confused as ever and can't stop blaming myself for things. Looking forward to a time when I can smile constantly

what to write. You ever get in such a rut that you don't know whats going on? Life is so damn hard right now. I seriously feel like i am losing it more and more everyday. All for different reasons. I have no idea where my life is headed anymore. I had goals. I had dreams. I had purpose. Now I feel like i have nothing. I get bad thoughts a ( Read more... )

So I've sat around most the day and thought about what to write in this journal entry. I has many thing that I wanted to write about and get off my chest. Now when it comes down to it I can't think of anything to say ( Read more... )

lay me down to sleep
because i thought tomorrow
would be a better day
lay me down to sleep
because i've fought long
and i'm too tired
lay me down to sleep
because my dreams
are all thats left
of what made me happy
lay me down to sleep
because its where I
used to lay with you
lay me down to sleep
because i don't ever
want to wake up again

so I thought it was a break to get our lives together
and figure out what we were doing.....
apparently I was wrong
:u(

*I can't stop shaking... promises are no longer valid"

what did I do to deserve this?

the night is cold ( Read more... )