i really want to find sombody who really appreciates me, care deeply about me and holds on to me and doesnt let go. i want somebody that deserves my love, and i want to make them feel like they are the most important person on this planet. i want somebody to grow old with, stick together through everything, conquer all of lifes challanges together ( Read more... )

why cant i tell certain people about how i feel about wat they do and other things. i guess its cause i dont want them to get mad at me, but that is a stupid reason. if they really are doing things that bother me i should tell them, right? i would love to be able to tell certain people other things too, but i can find a way to say it without ( Read more... )

some people can be such fucking pervs. keep you thoughts about that stuff to yourself. and im not a prude. i dont see how people can talk about things like sex as some kind of game. like "i fucked 479857234857 people last night". how can you feel good about saying stuff like that. its like meaningful relationships and waiting till you get married ( Read more... )

a poem i found that basically sums up how i feel right now ( Read more... )

my new email is now mikey.e_13@yahoo.com

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i didnt mean to sound ungrateful in that last entry but its how i feel and i konw that if that person reads it they will be extremely mad at me. but in a way i want him to read it. i just dont want anybody to get mad at me.

ya so my best friend is going out with a girl (who in my opinion is a slut), and i think that he should jsut stay with the gurl that he has like for a long time. this new girl lives half way accross the country and they probobly wont see each other in person ever again, exept for next year. but also i feel like i dont matter anymore, he doesnt talk ( Read more... )

lately my mom in particular has been hastlying me about me not being around ALL the time. and i spend to much time in my bedroom and not enough time with the rest of the family. for me when i try to do stuff with my family it is always somthing stupid, or my mother always comes up with something, usually about me ot complain about. and i dont ( Read more... )

for those who care, i have a new aim screen name. it is now SoundOfSil3nc3.