this little life of mine

[mikecore]

i've been thinking a lot about change and changing lately and how i can't seem to get myself to change or want to change. i've come to the realization that i really don't think there is any place for me in this world and i don't mean that in a i'm going to end my life kind of way or even in a remotely depressing way, i just think so far with all

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[waitforx]

we reach the middle road as our swings from religious fanaticism to substance abuse get less and less pronounced and we're left with little dialectics of apathy and desire.

we get old. it happens. i guess it's just what we make of it, trite as it sounds.

be well.

[akindofblues]

I guessed I always hoped that everyone was having the same jump from extreme overanalyzing worry to complete numbness like i do have quite frequently. But, I really think that if you are aware of it, that you can have a tiny bit less of those moments, and find the really tiny, seemingly pointless things in life that make you happy. I find that having something to look foward to...whether its a good meal, a movie, seeing a friend, reading, a hug, or whatever. i try mostly to just think about that one thing in the near future (while still making plans for the more distant future), and that helps a lot.
But, i still have those bi polar moments no matter what i do. I think that many of us are just built that way, and we will always have that battle to fight.

[dead_livers]

Sometimes is nice to just be content...

I've felt that way for quite a while now, and the notion of moving on is scary, yet exhilarating at the same time.