hmm well today was a long dayy, very productive(haha ivan. ya cuz around 1 im like wow wtf am i gunna do today so i im ivan im lieke yo wut u doing hes like i dunno and we made all these plans, and the day turned out relitevely good..kinda bittersweet. well first ivan and shane came over for a bit then shane left...me and evan were doing some work ( Read more... )

hmm its almost 1 in the day time, and im sitting at home in my boxers, listening to music...its so fun. no im just really bored, and when im bored, i fill this thing out. i dont even know what to write. im always just sitting here thinking about the same things. and supposidly im a dead man, cuz i talk shit, that wut i do on my spare time i talk ( Read more... )

ok soo wow im soo tired. been a long day kinda, dale and shane spent the night alst night and we woke up at like 10 for some reason so thats probably why im so tired...ok well anyways we got up then we went to..well i forgot but i know we came back her and reformated my computer then shane left for a little bit to get jackie and ivan then. but ( Read more... )

ok so umm another interesting day... but after school i went to alexas to chilll , that was a good time. woohoo. but yah school sucked. atleast we only have to go tomorow , i have so many quizes. i really dont care though fuck it. and i wish things were ok, blahh. well hmmm i dont have much to say cuz my feelings never really change to much so im ( Read more... )

i really dont know what im feeling right now, but if you could feel like nothing really at all, and not thinking of anything, that would be my mood. im so confused, and i dont know why, or waht to do. i dont know why i always do this to myself, and why i put myself in these kinda situations, ud think id learn my lesson by now but whatever. i want ( Read more... )

hmm well im just wundering what the hell i always do wrong, i try so hard sometimes, and it gets me knowwere, maybe if i just like dont try things will start working out...i really dont know what i do wrong, maybe someone knows......

evreyday i find one more reason why i cant stand this fucking place. "everything happens for a reason right" fuck thatt. still havent found that reason, not planning on it. i hope the next 3 years of my life are fucking the fastest years ever. im convinced since the day i moved here that im not suppsoed to be here and theres still no reason for me ( Read more... )

hmm sometimes i wish i could just like go back to elementry school...when u acually looked forward to schhol, because it was fun and everyone there was fun, and didnt care. its funny how much things change as you grow up. id give anything to go back. people are such jokes. and everythings so hard....

1. who are you, what's our relationship ( Read more... )

today is the last day of summer which means i basically just made it through my first summmer in new york. wow i cant even explain how different it was. sometimes i still cant even belive im here, like it seems like just yesterday i was walking into my old school with all my old friends. just i guess i still cant belive that im here, all of a ( Read more... )