The Red Sox fought and lost, boo. But, they went down fighting/trying. They didn't fail, but they didn't win ( Read more... )

...I feel like I'm hopeless, I suck at life, It sucks to be me. I want to get away from my house, but it's never going to happen until I get a real job. I put off looking because security was close to full time, but then it stopped and dropped down to wicked part-time. My resumes look great I just hate cover letters and the time it takes to fill ( Read more... )

...The first week of September 1999 when I was 18 I met them all. They were the people who helped change my life forever. Michaela and Grace, Jessica and Holly, Adam and Scott and Mark and Big Mike. And Kathy and Shawn too. They let me know about Jesus. I was one of the few freshman along for the ride that year. The first night of Crusade we went ( Read more... )

...I love it that he misunderstands boundaries as a further means of control. We can only be friends on his terms. He's introduced me to people and now he doesn't want me to be friends with them anymore. I think whoever said once you have dated someone you can't be friends when you break up is generally right. Charles and I attempted to date last ( Read more... )

I know money is important. I need to start making a bit more sometime soon before my debts get more out of control. I owe about $3000 in credit card debt. I owe $20,000 in school loans. When I was away from God I bought a lot of stuff that I didn't necessarily need, but wanted and oh yeah racked up some medical bills (about $600-800). I have to ( Read more... )

I am really happy I started writing again. Writing is like breathing to me. It is essential. It is how I connect with God and with other people. I'm finding now that some of this stuff I have down on the page I could read and speak out loud. One day I will. It just all needs to be written down first. One of my friends when we argue thinks writing ( Read more... )

I met another guy named Chris today. It's hilarious. I always think all guy Chris' are cute or hot. This one talked to me too about work at the pet store and the neighborhood we live in. And, he knew who I was talking about when I said my brother is always out on his bike. He was like oh cool, steve is your brother? Yep. I told him how people don't ( Read more... )

I have been accused of gossip and slander by a close male friend, actually sort of my ex-boyfriend. I'm shocked and I'm hurt. He's wrong about the slander. I have never slandered anybody. I am blunt and honest both to people's faces and with other people about them. I'll admit I'm often guilty of gossip. Women have issues with gossip that men don't ( Read more... )

I had an awesome conversation with my Cha Cha (aunt in Polish affection). It was about religion and how she wants me to be happy with what I do in my life. She watched this video about Martin Luther and the reformation and she understood why it happened. In her opinion, Luther was mad about the Catholic church’s use of money, how people were buying ( Read more... )

Rachel’s story the last night of Women’s Oasis was amazing because I had something similar happen to me, but at a different place in my life when I was struggling more with God than this specific issue of same sex attraction. In October 2001, about a year and nine months into my walk with the Lord I developed a welt the size of a baseball on my ( Read more... )