All I have giving me hope right now is that the weather is what's keeping me down but I'm doubting it's true. I feel so lost. Everyday I start feeling more alone. I can't fall asleep then when I do I don't want to get up. I hate complaining because I don't feel like I have the right to. I just feel so alone. I don't have anywhere to go sometimes ( Read more... )

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124 days until school is over. Why am I on winter "break" and school still has m so stressed. David makes the days go by so easier. I usually do really well managing all the school stress and all the stress with bills and all but lately it seems to be winning. Maybe its the winter, always makes the days harder, maybe its cause its the home stretch ( Read more... )

Reality is setting in, I prefer living in my head. He is the only thing keeping me hanging on lately and that is not a good thing. I lived in denial that coming out didnt change anything but as I sit here alone with no one to call, no where to go and nothing but schoolwork to make me feel like Im not a total waste reality sets in. Coming out I lost ( Read more... )

Back to work... and surprisingly awake. I was only fortunate enough to get about 2 hours of sleep despite trying to get to bed extra early last night. I got to bed around 10pm and started watching some DVR shows. About 15 minutes in to American Dad I was knocked out. Then about 15 minutes after that I woke up to turn off the tv and get back to bed ( Read more... )

A day late but Merry Christmas. First off I just wanted to include this link. Someone emailed it to me and although hesitant to even open the email I read the link and it was rather touching. Read Meax Not that I am saying it excuses or explains my life ( Read more... )

An engineering professor is treating her husband, a loan officer, to dinner for finally giving in to her pleas to shave off the scraggly beard he grew on vacation. His favorite restaurant is a casual place where they both feel comfortable in slacks and cotton/polyester-blend golf shirts. But, as always, she wears the gold and pearl pendant he ( Read more... )

So I started seeing her pop up quite a lot on facebook lately and realized, despite her saying that she deleted hers she still seems to have one. And even if it is that she just made a new one its pretty shitty that she added 90% of my family and not myself. Whatevs... it is just facebook but it just goes to show me others were right. I was/am ( Read more... )

I contemplated writing a long entry as to describe why the long hiatus and more so how much my life has changed since I last wrote in this thing but being that I am only writing in this again for the sake of myself, I kind of remember all too clearly what has changed since I last wrote in here and quite frankly, although life changing, I care not ( Read more... )

I have four tickets for sale or trade to THE BAMBOOZLE FESTIVLE for the Saturday May 5th show. I purchased my tickets a long while ago not realizing its the same day as a friends wedding so am hoping someone can help me out and get them off my hands or I would also love to trade with someone for Sundays show ( Read more... )