I've been thinking...

Nov 05, 2005 13:11

I'm 22 years old (23 in about a month and a half ( Read more... )

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lotjeisgraaf November 5 2005, 16:05:27 UTC
You're so YOUNG! I'm shocked.

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miknelson November 5 2005, 16:09:10 UTC
You didnt know that I was 22?

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lotjeisgraaf November 5 2005, 16:26:17 UTC
Well, yea, I did, I just don't sit here thinking about it the whole time. It's as though I keep getting older and you just stay young :-p

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miknelson November 5 2005, 17:02:30 UTC
Nah, dont you believe it. I'm getting older and older every day, quite literally. I feel it in my body and I'm feeling it in my heart. I actually think about and fear death these days. Whats that all about?

Its just a pondering, nothing special. I just think to myself that we're here for such a short time, what happens if we waste that life? If we dont make our mark properly? We should be trying to make our mark everyday, cos you never know what day you're going to go. So why is it that I sit here and put off making my mark? Or just never get around to it in anycase?

And that is the answer. Its an internal struggle between getting older everyday and embracing it, yet trying to behave young enough to ward off getting old too soon.

Life is weird, huh?

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nilmandra November 5 2005, 17:22:01 UTC
Maybe by the time you hit forty you'd realise you know nothing... ;p

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miknelson November 5 2005, 17:40:46 UTC
Oooooh, how very interesting. Wouldnt that be a shock to the system?

Maybe thats why mid-life crisis starts, people think that they want to start from the beginning again, from the point where they were able to start learning for themselves.

I'd like to think that, if at the end of my life I'm an old man who has lived as a young man learning how to be an old man, I'd be at my happiest.

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nilmandra November 6 2005, 16:04:39 UTC
Maybe I'd see you on 'Grumpy Old Men Part 826' ;)

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elfdream November 5 2005, 20:24:46 UTC
As someone who is a great deal older than you can I respectfully suggest you just not..worry about it?

There are always new things to learn and do. Age has very little to do with it. ITs a state of mind...its just numbers. Absorb what you can from this day..then move on.

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miknelson November 5 2005, 20:33:58 UTC
Nah, I think that you misunderstand me. I'm not stressing over this or anything. Effectively I've just come to a very obvious conclusion, I've stopped learning. All my life I've been a child, or at school, or at college, or at uni. I've always had some capacity of being taught things, or some excuse to learn...now I dont. When you get to my ages (and for every year beyond it I'd assume) you just dont learn automatically anymore.

Its crucial really, cos its at this point that loads of people sit back and think "Nah, I know enough already. Whats the point in trying to learn more?" A hell of a lot of people do the same thing with their body too, stop working it at this age. I dont want to be that way, I need to take an active interest in exercising my mind, same as I need to actively exercise my body.

So I shall.

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luthiea November 5 2005, 21:58:44 UTC
Deep post!

I agree, learning is important. I live for learning stuff!

ps - interesting post at my other journal recently, that you'd see if you friended me ;)

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miknelson November 5 2005, 23:23:34 UTC
I told you just to post your stuff in your normal LJ. Its your own fault for not listening.

Then again, I have just got broadband, so I suppose it wouldnt be that much of a problem...

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linda_does_nz November 6 2005, 07:07:07 UTC
Good boy! :)

And I did listen, and rolled my eyes ;)

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mwparenteau November 6 2005, 09:44:40 UTC
I never knew you were younger than I!

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miknelson November 6 2005, 12:02:22 UTC
Well, you always have been, always will be.

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