I just stopped seeing my therapist because every session her only advice was to "push past it" and "just do it." That "everyone has a tough time sometimes" and "Did I think I was different than anyone else?" Now I don't even know what is wrong with me. If I'm not different than anyone else, why is it such a problem? Why am I paralyzed?

I've been pretty depressed, unmotivated to do anything. Yesterday i cleaned all day, vacuumed, dishes, swept, laundry, cleaned bedroom, then I got really tired and slept for 14 hours. I'm not sure that is much better.

( edward vonroo )

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I never update this thing anymore. It goes back so long, 2001. I think I was dating Andi? I made everything private so only I could see the foolishness I used to post about. When I think about myself as a 15 year old it seems like a lifetime ago, but then when I think of the things that kept me going then, it doesn't seem that far past ( Read more... )

I have been reading twilight. Ok, that's a lie, i saw twilight and then started reading new moon. I seriously hate that I like it, but I do so I'll have to deal with that. :P Bella annoys the shit out of me, but maybe because she's a lot like me. I think one thing smeyer succeeded in is making a character that all sorts of girls/women can ( Read more... )

( I GUESS THIS IS ALL I LIVE FOR NOW )

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I'm doing a friends' cut, inspired by tatyana. most people i'm taking off probably don't even remember who I am anyway, especially since I haven't updated in 2 months. That's all. :)

this is great

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