holy shit...just read my past journal entries and noticed its damn near exactly a year since my luck turned....i wonder if its an annual cycle

it seems that after all this time. all i can do is delude myself into believing i can build a solid foundation of rebar and concrete, to maintain a solid home that can withstand anything...only to find ive done nothing more than build an elaborate house of cards...

commuting over 17 leaves alot of time for thinking, brooding, and musing. mostly ive been reflecting over the shit thats gone down over the past month. seems to me that not too long ago i was riding pretty high and feeling more than responsible for my own luck. somewhere along the line i let that go and started getting kicked in the nuts by my own ( Read more... )

i was having lunch the other day with derrick. i mentioned all the horrible shit thats been keeping me down lately. it was pretty funny but he mentioned that i have "extreme luck". it either swings one way or another at long intervals......im ready for it to swing the other way now.

too much shit, not enough places to store it. im going to be going through all my stuff, books, statues, airsoft guns. going to be sorting out all the stuff im not attached to or sentimental about and get rid of or sell the rest. a new page in my life has been turned and im ready to move forward. working with my dad has proven to be good and will ( Read more... )

i didnt sleep at all. i went to bed at midnight. at around 2:30 (looking at the clock at the time) i heard a noise in the next room, it sounded like shuffling. the hairs on the back of my neck stood on end as it continued and it sounded close by, like around my counter or in the living room. i thought to myself that it could be a burglar or some ( Read more... )

been playing alot of mini games, out of a relationship. street fighter 4 is awesome, so is world of goo. i got my dirtbike back AAAAND i fixed it. its still a piece of shit but it runs. ive been confused alot and depressed but its nothing i wont bounce back from. my job is stable....ish. my 30th birthday is the 14th which is kind of terrifying. not ( Read more... )

so things havent been going their best lately. i havent been posting much if at all in the recent months so i do this mostly for myself. as a jounral entry in the classic sense of the word. i find myself at a new crossroads in life. many choices and things attempting to herd me in ways i dont like. also, who is to know the right path to take. my ( Read more... )

how do you save money, make sure it doesnt go in value, and prepare for a possible depression? easy! im going to be putting aside money from each of my paychecks towards purchasing silver and gold....literally. i dont always have enough to but a whole ounce of it since thats aout how much each of my paychecks are but 10 ounces of silver will go up ( Read more... )

so monica and myself decided that it was high time we started working towards our goals of getting fit and liking who we see in the mirror. since monica isnt ready to start a gym membership yet due to lack of funds (she will be at her new job next month) we started the embarrasing task of entrusting our fitness to the wii.....for the most part. we ( Read more... )