tonight was a bad night. 

 i want to start writing again

like really write
the way i use to

i don't know if i have it in me
nothing i wrote ever touched anyone
who is to say it ever will?

so i don't really have anything i can complain about ( Read more... )

the new stuff is ( Read more... )

 I need confidence

I hate my dreams

I want to write a book
         Question is, would it be any good?

 I need a new camera
My boyfriend is the best thing to ever happen to me
Degrassi in two days
I don't want to close tonight
Millersville for the weekend
Why if everything seems so right
       Can I not stop thinking of what I shouldn't

 Kauffman is sitting on my bed reading his stupid text
And all I want to do is go see Across The Universe damnit!
I hate sitting in
Even if I'm not alone
I hate this house
I am always so trapped here and I am going insane
I am in desperate need of a change
Something terrifying and exciting

I AM THE WALRUS 
COO COO CA-CHU

Today Woke Up Next To Boy
        School
        Tom Jones With David And Boy
        Freaks And Geeks With Pennybags<3
Tomorrow
        School
        Boys Show At The Troc 
        I Just Know He Is Going To Be Perfect<3
Wensday
        School
        Priorities
        CN Skate Palace With Kim <3 ( Read more... )

I keep randomly breaking out into tears for not reason lately
I'm not sad
I'm pretty happy actually
But that might just be it
I know what happens

Sometimes I hate how easily I trust him

And now I'm trusting friends more than I should
I'm repeating history
I just can't learn from my mistakes
It's hard to breathe...I'm about to hit ground
After 3 months of ( Read more... )

More than often now
I want to reach out
Say it
      "I know I'm sorry too"
But words are wasted on deaf ears

Last night my therapist told me that friendship
And trust
Is a two-way street
But I know better
Some friends turn into vandalists
Turn that stop sign 
Into Do Not Enter
And make Best Friends cry