why do all the little things just destroy me?

i can never focus on the big picture.

i'm alone tonight...

i'm trapped in a world i don't want to be in. i think i should do just like my uncle jack, just get up and go far away. just start new. i used to be surrounded by friends and happiness now i just feel abandonded. more reason for me to just go away. i feel so sick.

i've buried myself alive on the inside.

here's the night and it shines and it calls us on and on. so be here by my side and watch the stars, they're ours. make a wish or just take charge. the moment comes, get lost and go far ( Read more... )

so everyone's saying that i've changed. changed how?? i'm not really sure. all i can say about that is something died inside of me over these past couple of years and ever since the day i felt that way all i've been trying to do is be happy. well i'm going to be happy if you people like it or not. i am what i am. no sorrys this time. and to you, ( Read more... )

he dreams for tears so he can feel alive again

does anyone out there know what it feels like to be so completely and utterly depressed for so long that they're not even able to determine how they feel anymore? about anything and everything. it's kinda like everyday i watch the same channel, and everyday the same show is on. i can't turn it off. im tired of watching the same channel. im just so ( Read more... )

wouldn't it be wonderful if......

fuck.

This is a lesson in procrastination. I kill myself because I'm so frustrated. And every single second that I put it off, means another lonely night I gotm to race the clock. What say we go and crash your car? And every time I leave you go and lock the door. So I walk myself picking at a chip on my shoulder, I'm another day late and one year older. ( Read more... )

It never really mattered too much to me ( Read more... )

noooooooooo sleeeeeeeeepppppp. wowzers do i feel like shite!