this is the way the world ends...

[milsta]

i don't know what keeps me at this website. habit maybe.

i want to understand the difference between the intense love i feel for my friends and, like, love love. i don't know where one starts and the other ends. i think it makes for all the awkward things that happen in my life. and lots of the sad things too. i keep feeling sad these days.

Comments

[noldoaran]

Hmmm, well I usually designate based on sexual attraction...but I think that's why I have 0 gay guy friends. So, it's just easier for me. Women are the friends. Gay guys are the crushes. And straight boys fit somewhere in the middle. A veritable erasable pen, if you will. Or a spork, perhaps.

Insert clever and witty comment based on where you can love here, followed by soothing notes of love and a missed friendship, many exclamation points and a slightly sarcastic joke to pull us back into good humour,

~ME

[milsta]

i suppose that would keep it easier, except that most of my friends are straight boys. i can never tell if i just love them very much as friends or if i want to love them more than that. i suppose once i have experienced what real love is, i'll be able to know the difference.

i have issues. but i guess we all do.