i'm writing you ( Read more... )

i hate being sick i was getting better then the night came and i woke up feeling like shit my plans were ruined but hey maybe it was meant to be and it's all symbolism..this fuckin cough syrup is really not working i don't like this i'd like to sleep..i'd like a few things right now i'll be patient..patience is very important and you have loads of ( Read more... )

why do i even try..it's like i put myself through this on purpose..and they know and so do you but in the end you're gonna look like the fool the stupid idiot..it's all an act it's not real...plastic fake and cheap and easily breakable..but will it ever come why would it, it's too easy not to besides who's really getting hurt except for you right ( Read more... )

so many events have happened on this day..you've got columbine..hitler..and weed..lynelle happy birthday not to mention all the other people born today..is change coming i can't tell..i don't know the difference between my own thoughts or gut feelings coming through, in a way aren't they both the same both thoughts that come from me so i dunno i'm ( Read more... )

that sound brought back memories..whenever i'd hear the wheels i'd look already hoping who it would be or waiting for it listening from the living room then either the ring or pounding up the stairs...it's nice..i haven't heard that in so long...everything happens for a reason everything it's all very true and evident in the subtlest of ways..you ( Read more... )

so today i learned or not really learned because i knew it before but re-remembered that children laugh on average 146 times a day and adults only do it on average 4 times a day i swear i do it less than adults...sometimes...so i had a good easter like i think it was really great and not only one of the best easters but maybe even days at least for ( Read more... )

see aside from the usual sick thoughts i was doing okay right maybe you can even call it normal then i saw it...your words..it kinda hit me like a wave definitely came out of nowhere..the feelings it brought out in me...i don't know where i am or where this is all heading..i just want to talk to you again...for hours and hear everything..just get ( Read more... )

well i feel like such an idiot right now..i'd really think that i woulda learned by now y'know knew what to do the right things and all but no i didn't think and this is where i'm left it sucks because it all started off so well i could feel it i could tell it was gonna be good and it would end so perfectly twice maybe even thrice..now here i am ( Read more... )

well hmmm so i wrote to you and it's been such a long time but i just couldn't bring myself to send it to you and it wasn't like a big deal or anything important of course i just didn't..sometimes i wonder if all those shout outs go to you too because i think if so then i've always been right about things kinda sucks to know but how often am i ( Read more... )

is it too much to ask ( Read more... )