damn it and fuck you y'know i really try to think why shitty stuff just happens to happen like hmm what did i do wrong here but i can't really truly honestly think of anything so thanks anyway i'll just keep on expecting what may come but other than that i think i can positively say that i've been having good days and nights maybe it's my price huh ( Read more... )

it's cold but i'm supposed to like that right it was nice yesterday..seeing my family and my sisters it's like with every visit i feel she gets a little more used to me but then i go home and all is forgotten...hey i'm not completing forgotten i'm not going to look at this as i usually would i'm just going to see past it and think of it probably ( Read more... )

so nice to know how things are without me i wonder if it woulda been any different if i coulda just been stronger i keep having very vivid dreams like i really wish i knew what each meant, why is that even in my subconscious i'm such the loser that i truly am..but at least tonight i got some insight into my head it just figures that more than ( Read more... )

so blah you first of allit all fuckin figures that didn't really last long so thanks ahhhhhh...so now you've come to the realization of what is probably the truth and yet you still try and deny it really what's wrong with you why do you do this to yourself it happens because you're maybe consenting but don't know about the other and yet too scared ( Read more... )

well things feel different i suppose luck has been going well but for now right..bubble..i feel better its like this like weight was lifted off of me but it goes unnoticed at least not in my head right i really just wish that all the codes would stop it's like i just don't get it...i wonder how long this will last..my thoughts that i had thought ( Read more... )

i don't need this i really don't and it can be so frustrating because well i guess i don't understand but you don't need to hide really believe me i'm stronger than that..and you know what, all this i didn't even ask for if we remember correctly it was you so but i really like that picture i wish there were more and it's so good to be talking to ( Read more... )

hmm i don't know if this is working...i keep having a recurring dream does that mean something but i can't finish what i'm supposed to do. y'know i count down the weeks like oh yay another one is done now but other than oh getting my paycheck what the hell do i do it for, it's not like one day i'm going to graduate or move or anything remotely ( Read more... )

**yeah so first of all this isn't selena so if your here to read about selena it's not her so you might want to stop reading ( Read more... )