I seriously feel like vomiting right now. And its making this entire thing even worse. The whole "realness" and being straight with people talk me and tim had last night struck a terrible nerve with me. And its unfortunate ( Read more... )

I feel great. Momentum is starting to swing. Just a little bit more. And ill be on the way. And a bunch of that, Ill be halfway there. And a shit load of that and Ill be "there". At which point ill be in this position just a couple rungs up the ladder. Im exicited!

Pew Pew where the fuck mah lazers at.

It seems like some people dont understand that trust is an integral part in relationships. And it makes me giggle on teh insides. Ben is guilty of it too.

ARGH BLAST OFF! <-(im cringing typing that)

If it were not for this extensive bug collection...

Somebody should kick me in the head until I realize how to not be a low-life scumbag.

I need a time machine. I need to go back to June and re-do the past 5 months of my life. Cause I fucked myself hard. In just about every aspect. But then again there were a lot of good times. Now the question arises. Would I be happier with these memories and my life in disarray? Or would I be happier if didnt call Tim that night, if I didnt hang ( Read more... )

Real quick guys. If any one has any organized crime connections; I need to make 100 bills real quick. Like this is kind of important.

Whooo doggie. Im lonely. Although that does seem to be a recurring theme here.

The last few grains of sand are now falling through the hourglass. We gotta flip this shit real fast. Or who the fuck knows whats gonna happen.

Fucking argh. Erk. Hrm. Thats all. Ima blow up soon.

Ya i figured it out. Ben brought it up. Inadequacy. What I've been avoiding for 4 and a half months. I was doing a great job too. But I'm pretty sure it the dam has broken. The last vestiges of the persona I created to deal with the issue are gone. Everyone seemed to like homeless Phil better.