I hate the contradiction in my life ( Read more... )

For people who don't know, my dog of 16 years passed away Wednesday night. It was singlehandedly the hardest experience I can recall in years and years, and I was one of those people sobbing from the soul and cradling their dying pet. Almost all of my childhood memories include Scamper, and knowing I will never pet his ruff of fur again breaks my ( Read more... )

What do you do when your dog of 16 years is about to die? Because mine is and I'm a complete wreck.

I'm about to ditch all midterm responsibilities to go home to see him for one last time. Trying not to sob on my way to my car will be almost impossible.

I have a feeling I'm messing with something that shouldn't be messed with. But I can't stop ( Read more... )

I have a crazy urge to do something funky with my hair. Put orange streaks in it, make it electric red, maybe a chunk of purple. Black chunks would be cool, but it's impossible to get out and I'm not ready to be stuck with something that dark forever ( Read more... )

It's really hard when you realize the person you used to be in love with is a sadistic sociopath. But... liberating and easy to wish bad things upon. I like that part.

Being stuck on winter break makes me so restless and bored. I can't wait to have classes and things to do and legit reasons to leave my dwelling ( Read more... )

I feel so different after Gratitude. I came home entirely exhausted and void of most energy and couldn't even sleep right away. Laying down in bed was strange, my brain was racing and felt like it had been in a different world for twelve hours. Like the normal world was entirely foreign and I had to get used to it, a mere 25 hours from when I left ( Read more... )

It's hard to try to recall my amazing night when I feel like my thoughts are stuck in the mud that is exhaustion ( Read more... )

So, I love Adderall.

That is all for now.