this is about as close as i can get to removing this without completely erasing all the entries which go back a long time. actually i'd earlier removed most posts from 2006 saving only those by john. but i'd like to keep these here for myself.

this worst thing about this month is how i can't afford to buy any CDs 8(((((((((((((((((((((((((((( okay i MIGHT BUY ONE can anyone reccomend a CD to get me through the horrible daze???? smashing pumpkins vs modest mouse vs regina spektor vs aphex twin (hmmm?????aiya) vs nick&norah soundtrack

i wrote this for some uni i can't remember which one. i don't even remember feeling like this, frankly. creatively, the inertia i've felt since january has morphed into the greatest sense of doom and failure which feels like the weight of all the buildings in the world piled on top of me. i'm really unable to express any of my intelligent thoughts ( Read more... )

well i'm praying to God to mend some things and make me strong and well it would be nice if i could have some joy too... yeah

i was on fire but now most things are dead to me. sometimes i feel alive. i know clearly every person who keeps me going. thanks.

Stuff Happens............. Move Along. i am just going to get myself to the finish line i don't care anymore not like anyone else does.

just a heads up that i post on xuperduper.blogspot.com but the content is very different there's the stuff i find that i like and such here is just RAHmonstrous i dno some of you might enjoy it. yup!

the heart is capricious but i have only one ultimate commitment. i have a lot of whims that i can't predict or understand but i'm clear about my purposes. though this holiday offers the illusion of time standing still i am actually growing older by the day.... and time for better thoughts and better deeds and better conversations is slipping ( Read more... )

wahey i was thinking so long and hard on the bus this morning i was so tired by the time i got to church but it was good as always and everything peaceoutatown when the bus takes me along i get lazy and let the stupid thoughts take me along but i really have to discipline my mind it gets so silly and then i start thinking i feel a certain way when ( Read more... )

i'm taking this down soon. everything i write here is prideful anyway ( Read more... )